Dear diary,

I've my stand... I seriously do..and sadly my stand is judgemental and from my perspective...

I dont need an assistant who does all the charting/charting/charting writing/writing/writing.....

when the call bell is ringing and just when me and my partner is running like a mad woman in the ward.. i have no junior in sight..

.. when i donned my medication apron stated " medication round, do not disturb" we need full concentration... because med error usually happens when there is distraction.. true enough.. i've "numerous" patient calling me for BNC........ Im seriously pissed... it's nearly 9pm and i have not served my medication... i have to go round begging ppl to co-sign for me! And each time i entered to the patient room i've countless of things to do.. and that hinders me to continue my medicine serving... and again.. i've no assistant in sight....

If he/she cannot cope.. and would want to use the word cope... can i list down the things that stress me out too? We've got 101 things to run.... every moment every second, my mind is constantly bothering me... and everyday i've to bring back my stressors.. and my love ones have to comfort me that well it will be okay... it will soon be over... everyday i've to live with that kind of stress level.. having nightmare out of it.. so what is the word COPE ?

I havent hit the toilet for the entire shift and for how many times, i saw with my own eyes... thinking to myself.. wow.. she has got the time..

my partner and i have been running like a mad woman.....

and my partner blurted out all the discontentment at the last minute.....the tension is there.. i do know why she does that because every BNC she has to do.. and our assistant is seriously out of sight.. and this is why she is so pissed off..

she voiced out my stand too as well..... my partner is the assertive one.. my partner is the known bad tempered, straight forward....

the receiving party was unhappy with the remark... and again the tension was there...

she slammed the charts and left the ward...

call bells are ringing.... i've to taken turns to attend one by one to them in the midst of the report passing..

well.. i'm thinking.. so where's the responsibility..?

how i wish i can do that... out of anger and walked out


seriously... initiative is the missing word... she lacked of it.

more ..... more of it..... and she's just too sensitive.... hence there are times.. i'm not assertive and lack of ability to delegate...




我真的是对事， 不对人！ 我再一次强调， 这个行业，真的不需要呈现，无暇的报告， 因为病人的情况，一直在改变。